Who am I, anyway?

I’ve managed to whittle my synopsis down to about 1200 words. That means I’ve cut roughly 1100 words off of the first draft. I no longer consider it a terrible, horrible no good very bad synopsis. Now I can look at it and see potential! This is a pretty exciting step forward in the process. I’m letting it percolate for a while before I go back and start trying to fine tune it. In the meantime I thought I would share a bit more about myself with you. I’ll be adding it to an “about” section of the blog, as soon as I figure out how. 😉

So, here I am. I’ve always wanted to write a book. But I’ve never been a very prolific writer. I love journals, but hate journaling. I have a dozen or so beautiful journals, some are gifts, some I’ve bought for myself…all of them empty. Or, with a few lonely pages written on with total commitment (at the time) and lofty goals of actually filling a whole journal. Yeah, that just doesn’t happen.

I tend to keep my words inside my head. Not to say I’m a particularly quiet person. Because, I’m not. I could be described as loud, and I can be. 🙂 I’m vocal and outgoing and I am not afraid of that. I’m also intensely private and very, very, good at talking without saying much about myself. I’m also painfully honest too, so if you ask me a question, you best be ready for a real answer. Although, I’ve gotten much better at using tact (a previously foreign concept) when discussing things with people. Believe me, that did not come naturally and I am proud of having figured it out. Mostly figured it out.

So I have wondered about what to put in my “about” section. Currently it would not be very interesting! I am a married, middle aged woman with one child in highschool. I love animals and we have cats, dogs, fish and soon we’re adding a snake to our menagerie. I live in a beautiful city close to Seattle Washington and would not live anywhere else. I’ve always been very active, I love sports and being outdoors.

But I got hurt about 9 years ago. I was no longer active. I couldn’t play sports. I had to stop working and it was all very sad and depressing. We won’t go much into that but I have health challenges, terrible spine issues, ME,  fibromyalgia and sjogrens disease. (if you’d like to know more, feel free to ask) Because I no longer worked and I was very ill,  it changed everything.

I didn’t know what to do with myself. Heck, I barely knew who I was anymore! So, I had to figure it out, it took a long time. My health became my full time job and I am so thankful for my supportive husband and daughter. It took a long time, in all seriousness, it took years to get to a point where I could focus on things outside my health and immediate family.

So I needed something to do. Something worthwhile, something to help me feel like I could still set goals and accomplish things. My Husband and daughter encouraged me to write. At first I scoffed. My brain had the dumb! I am not even kidding, it still does. I have a terrible time these days because cognitive issues are very common with what I deal with. Some days I can’t write at all, and sometimes I have to stop in the middle of what I am doing and wait til another day.

But I became intrigued by the possibility of writing a book. I certainly had enough time to do it. Which is a good thing because it took me forever to write my first draft.

That is enough for today. 🙂 This post got very long and I hope that someone will read it. LOL I will continue it in my next post.

She turned her can'ts into cans and her dreams into plans



2 thoughts on “Who am I, anyway?”

  1. I’m in a similar boat, but the issue in my case was learning to help my daughter with her autism. It has taken most of my focus for a decade, but we are in a place I can spend time on my own pursuits. Please, don’t consider yourself boring. You may have felt as if you were standing still during that time, but you were still growing in different ways. Writing takes equal portions of stubbornness and patience. Keep it up!

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    1. Thank you, you make a great point and I will have to work at reframing how I feel about my “lost years”. My frustration with my health gets the better of me sometimes. 😀

      I am glad you are getting time for yourself now, it’s got to be so difficult balancing those needs.


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